Final Goodbyes

As I stand on the edge staring down...
My hands bleed from the fence behind...
Lips contorted in a frown...
Hands holding what they will find...

Suns will set before I leave this place...
The waves below will thunder and roar...
Heart now dead will start to race...
This bloody rose will soar...

I've said my good byes to that past...
Mourned and tore myself apart...
Though I swore it would always last...
Deep down in my heart...

A piece of me will always love...
The one I leave this day...
Like the tainted bloody wings of a dove...
Recovered enough to fly away...

Her mate is dead but she must live on...
Forced by others in her chest...
Their hopes rest upon...
What choice she hopes is the best...

That cliff won't be my grave today...
Though a piece of my heart is there...
I'll cry in silent times to say...
Life just isn't fair...

But with tainted wings I must fly...
Another life is pushing me...
Giving up is now a lie...
As shining eyes will see...

I can't wallow forever in this dreadful place...
As the rose I threw flies away...
Tears blown from my face...
Waiting for sunrise to be my new day...

Back over that fence with the sun at my back...
To smiling faces I know...
Though strength is what I lack...
I smile back to show...

He'll forever be in my heart...
But life continues around me...
With that as my jump start...
I finally begin to see...

The friends who missed my smile...
My new reason for being alive...
Even though it's been awhile...
I will somehow survive.