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Final GoodbyesAs I stand on the edge staring down...
My hands bleed from the fence behind...
Lips contorted in a frown...
Hands holding what they will find...
Suns will set before I leave this place...
The waves below will thunder and roar...
Heart now dead will start to race...
This bloody rose will soar...
I've said my good byes to that past...
Mourned and tore myself apart...
Though I swore it would always last...
Deep down in my heart...
A piece of me will always love...
The one I leave this day...
Like the tainted bloody wings of a dove...
Recovered enough to fly away...
Her mate is dead but she must live on...
Forced by others in her chest...
Their hopes rest upon...
What choice she hopes is the best...
That cliff won't be my grave today...
Though a piece of my heart is there...
I'll cry in silent times to say...
Life just isn't fair...
But with tainted wings I must fly...
Another life is pushing me...
Giving up is now a lie...
As shining eyes will see...
I can't wallow forever in this dreadfu
Falling ReflectionI reached out for you as I fell,
The world sucking me under,
Fires glowing from hell,
Now torn asunder.
Laying broken across the skyline,
Wind playing through my hair,
I tried saying I was fine,
Knowing you didn't care.
Clenching my fists I finally stood,
Pain burning through broken wings,
Sewed my heart up best I could,
But that doesn't fix things.
So I'll put my left foot first,
Nothing to soothe my pain,
My back about to burst,
All for no gain.
Yet as I stare into the wild blue,
Each step healing grace,
Having thoughts only of you,
Puts a smile on my face.
Roses For YouI had given up seeing you again,
My heart bleeds on the floor,
But that was back then,
Now I'm asking for more.
The pain it tears me apart,
As I stare at your grave,
No longer a beating heart,
All your life you gave.
I wanted to throw mine away,
Walk the path I hate,
Scream to the wind I say,
But this was your fate.
Clenched fists as I kneel,
Roses in my bloody hand,
This was just part of the deal,
Blood returns to the land.
Your grave makes me tremble with fear,
The pain is too much to know,
Watching me shed a tear.
It will finally show.
How much you really meant to me,
All these past times we spent,
Now with nothing to cloud can you see,
What this whole life meant?
I gave my body to you,
My heart went too,
But you gave in too fast,
And you didn't last.
Roses for your grave each year,
As blood spills from my hand,
I will shed a tear,
To this forsaken land.
The Truth in the LiesThe first time I asked for help,
My hand outstretched to the sky,
Knocked off the cliff with a yelp,
All I could do was cry.
Again it is coming to me,
I survived the fall,
The same decision to be,
I must give this my all.
Deceived by the friend,
Who pushed me over the edge,
Trying to make an end,
Watching me topple over the ledge.
The most important thing,
My heart did die,
He was my everything,
Crushed by a lie.
Jealousy clouded true vision,
Life and death hung in the air,
But that was not his mission,
He did not care.
All he wanted was the friend I stole,
Regardless if we both would die,
I would pay the toll,
For believing that lie.
Deep within my heart I made a choice,
My screams promising till the end,
That with my one and only voice,
I'd never ask a friend.
But there was truth in that lie,
With every word came something new,
A doubt in my heart that made me cry,
Questioning everything I did do.
Was love strong enough to conquer hate?
Though the odds swore I would die,
Did I realiz
DrowningAll I can see above me is bubbles,
The sun to the west dying alone,
But it can't see my troubles,
As I plan to atone.
Moon above watch me drown,
While a last struggle fades,
Let the sun crown,
In bloody shades.
Being half the final fight,
Stars so high above,
Light fades to night,
So does my love.
Can't you hear my scream?
Clenched fists below,
Be this a dream,
Or a show.
Those who could hear me now turn their ears,
Covered by hands bloodied and betrayed,
Upon faces covered in tears,
Terror and dismayed.
Why would this be my final end?
Extend my hands up again,
Risking it all for a friend,
Thrown away by them.
Hold me close now as I begin to die,
With friends turned away,
Out with their lie,
Never to stay.
Only one stands on the still water,
Watching with silver green eyes,
Like a Guardian for a daughter,
Rain pours from the skies.
Save me I silently will plead,
Death not too far behind,
This one push I need,
Someone to be kind.
Keep me close if I may begin to fall,
Hands pushing me to
FadeYou watch me as I fade away...
Walking into the dark night...
It isn't just like every day...
Where I cower and block out light...
Give me a choice...
Set me free...
This is my voice...
Can't you see?
I don't want to play...
Fear and pain in my eyes...
What am I to say...
When blood paints the skies?
People tear through each other...
Like it doesn't matter...
Finding more than one lover...
I don't want any of the latter...
You want to cry and lose control...
Hold out your hands to me...
I'll be the one to take your soul...
Before hell can take thee...
To die in this life...
Is yet another phase...
Unable to handle the strife...
From so many days...
I carry the scars of a victim...
Bloody and full of fear...
When the lights go dim...
I'll run away from those dear...
No one shall witness your pain...
They won't ever see mine...
I hate that you had so much to gain...
But they took it all with a line...
The rights which we all love...
Given to us by our kin...
Under those from above...
Distant DreamerI held your hand,
When you weren't in demand,
Those sweet eyes only for me,
But that's the sickest part you see.
I had given up before,
Now I'm damaged on the floor,
Screaming and writhing in pain,
We had so much to gain.
Tremble before my might,
This is just another fight,
Beautifully displayed on the glass,
Any other man and I would pass.
I closed my eyes once again,
Wanting time to be like back then,
My heart only beats for you,
With every action that I do.
Close our eyes in the end,
You're not just some prized friend,
How can you not see?
That I am what you made me.
Every breath I take,
Is just for your sake,
Putting my nose to the stone,
Fighting so I won't be alone.
Don't leave me here in this place,
Where my dull heart won't race,
My happiness is only with you,
With everything you've made me do.
All I want is to be by your side,
In the darkness I will confide,
I spited you back then,
Can we be together again?
I call out your name,
Not for the glamor or fame,
But because I love y
Don't I deserve it?Why is the flesh so fragile?
Soft skin turns to jagged red lines
The day before the snow came
Three years ago so similar
Right to this day, before the moon came out
This life I live, it frightens them
One week ago I finally went insane
I cut some more jagged lines
Right down to the bone, my love
I hope this hurts you
As much as it hurts me every day
Don't I deserve it, my love?
After all, I blame you
All of my insecurities, spoon fed
Only by you, my sweet love
So go home, let me rest
Do I not deserve it, my love?
The WindowI stand here before this
Stained glass window
On the outside looking in
Each multicolored pane
The source of my aggravation
Each color tells a story
Each story derives another
Piece of the puzzle,
A puzzle you can’t quite
This game of charades has turned
Simple sign language into
Silent screams of desperation
You continue to defy the laws of physics
Reactions just aren’t your “thing”
How many more petals must fall
Before the lights within the attic
Illuminate this dreary fog?
When will my obvious words
Stop falling on deaf ears?
Moments turn into days
Days turn into sleepless nights
The end of the tunnel is dark
And progress has flown south for the winter;
Seems common sense is in short supply
Here I stand before this
Stained glass window
On the outside looking in
It’s lonely and cold out here
And yet, you won’t even hold the door open
For me to enter
ComplicateToo often in our lives
We complicate things,
Cluttering our minds and hearts
With useless worries and fears.
Instead of drinking in the Summer sun
Or becoming mesmerized by your coffee,
You worry about getting sunburnt
And consuming too much caffeine.
We forget to take pleasure
In a simple hello and goodbye;
A smile shared, an "I love you",
A hug given for no reason.
We analyse every look and smile
Since each syllable means something;
Even a tiny thing such as an emoticon
Has a deeper meaning these days.
A simple "how are you" or "why"
Can be seen as offensive,
As too intrusive, as nosy,
Too demanding and suspicious.
Just talking to someone of the opposite gender
For more than a few minutes
Will have people automatically assuming
The two of you are in a relationship.
Instead of enjoying the music,
We criticize the lyrics, discuss the tune,
Making the song so technical,
Sucking it dry of any emotion.
Just sitting alone on your bed
Listening to "Florence and the Machine"
Is an effective
Reaching Out.I'm reaching out with my hands
Expecting you my love to embrace me,
But when I close my hand and see that you
Have not yet grasped on,
With every time I open my hand
To this painful empty feeling,
It tears this hole in my heart open
Letting it fill in with sadness,
And letting it become deeper.
So I let my nails grow out
Not expecting for anyone to latch on,
Continuing to grasp this desolate air
I find my self falling down in despair,
But then I see you reaching out
To grab my lonely hand out from the dark,
But alas I cut you,
I lost the sense of caring,
My nails and my heart,
Have become too sharp for this hand to hold on.
Cold Arms' EmbraceI realized that
we've been together
under my umbrella...
...while feeling the raindrops
falling down from the gray skies
for my umbrella is too small
If not for my shade
concealing your back,
the arms of rain wouldn't
have to give me a cold embrace.
Her Second HeartShe sees him laying there
Unable to speak
Unable to move
To breathe on his own
The car speeding down the road
at 45 miles per hour
in a 25 miles per hour zone
stole all of it from him
5 minutes to midnight
5 minutes until they pull the plug
She stares at his empty shell
The shell of the boy she once loved
and still loves
Her love never confessed
3 minutes to midnight
She holds his stiffened hand
and whispers to him
"I love you"
1 minute to midnight
His family files in
saying their goodbyes
The girl does not move
from her love's side
30 seconds to midnight
Tears are shed
None as despaired as the girl's
The droplets falling, decorating his pale face
"I love you" She whispers again
The plug is pulled
Severing his last lifeline
His face is covered
He is taken out of the room
His family leaves
But the girl stays
She sinks to the floor
When she looks up
She sees a note on the floor
Her name written on it
inside a clumsily drawn heart
His trademark bad ha
I once believedI once believed in love that's true
and hearts that never waver,
but my reward was bitter scorn
for all that I once gave her.
I gave my all and trusted in
the love that she returned:
I leapt into her passion's flames
not fearing I'd get burned.
For little did I then suspect
that love could ever die
or, worse than that, that all along
the whole thing was a lie.
I once believed that every phrase
she spoke would last forever,
but all the words have faded now
and all the bonds have severed.
Nightmares Kill FaithWaking up late at night
Crying because you have no sight,
Darkness whistles like a piercing screech
And your ears wish to hear the sound of speech.
They wish they could hear those special words,
"It will be okay you'll be saved by the lord"
But really you will lay there so cold and alone
Learning that when it's over there will be no home.
You fall back to sleep and your eyes become heavy
The nightmare comes back and the tears break the levy,
You cry and you wish that sleep would soon come
But as long as you feel there is no hope
You'll sit there lifeless and tie up the rope.
HeadachesFor the heartbreak,
Every breath I take,
The movements I make,
I'm in pain for your sake.
Fighting among us,
Promise me you won't cuss,
Screaming in the darkest lust,
Do we stand here because we must?
Dreams surrounding the end,
I can't count you my friend,
Past the water and around the bend,
Though I fight this is where I must mend.
Those deep blue,
I haven't a clue,
Why I fell in love with you,
Beaten and broken I crawled too.
Back to where I'm from,
You didn't beg me to come,
Sent me far away and then some,
Maybe in pieces inside an oil drum.
But I did escape,
Though whispering rape,
Drunken kisses on my nape,
Half asleep so no rope or tape.
My belly full,
Your angered pull,
Pain as we did cull,
Their eyes blank and dull.
No funeral for accidents,
Your greatest achievements,
Freeing yourself from commitments,
Cowering from your deceitful agreements.
How could you sit there and smile?
As I laid in the hospital quite awhile,
My body first down the stairs in a pile,
You did not care th
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