Jumping Too Far

You told me so long ago,
That you would never show,
The weakness that I carry within,
One that all look down on as a sin.

So I'm going to follow you,
Do everything you couldn't do,
But how can I put my faith there?
I know when I fall you won't care.

Leaving me alone,
Bleeding from the bone,
Though you pushed me away,
I still cried out again to stay.

Back to me,
Tears I couldn't see,
Left alone bleeding to die,
I turned away to pray to the sky.

Close that chapter,
Never left in rapture,
Now how could you do this?
Leave me trembling from a kiss.

Trembling now,
I didn't care how,
Pain began to lance up my side,
There's no where to run and hide.

With no answer,
Like a wounded dancer,
Dragging myself to my feet,
As my heart struggled to beat.

I'd never fall again,
Clenching my teeth then,
Slowly I made it back home,
Just to lick my wounds alone.

Left to die,
But I fought to fly,
This wouldn't keep me down,
Let me never show that dark frown.

It started slow,
I just wanted to go,
Refusing the offered hand,
I'd do this til I hit the sand.

Fight through,
Everything I do,
Pain in my back and chest,
But I wouldn't sit back and rest.

Clip my wing,
I won't even sing,
Never stop trying to fly,
Going to see that beautiful sky.

Keep your pet,
I haven't given up yet,
My face contorted in pain,
I've got something to gain.

Don't stop,
Reach the top,
Run faster than that,
Til you collapse on the mat.

Don't give in,
It's still a sin,
Letting your heart die,
I thought you wanted to fly.

So wounded now,
Doesn't matter how,
Blood covering each stair,
But do you really think I care?

It's time to fight,
Give it all your might,
Collapse isn't an choice,
Cry out til you have no voice.

I gave him my all,
And he just let me fall,
So now it's time to fight back,
Be the leader of the next attack.

I jumped too far,
Tried to reach that bar,
Should've known it was a trick,
Just to make room for someone less sick.

He'll go nowhere fast,
I'll leave him in the past,
Jump little boy one more time,
There's nothing left but the grit and grime.

Don't come back,
I've got what you lack,
Strength and determination again,
When you failed I gave up on boys not men.